all made up with nowhere to go

That feeling when you find a streamer you like who, for the most part, isn't terrible, but then constantly rags on lower difficulty settings for games as being "for babies" :|

I was watching said person play Everhood, and they went through the game on Hard, partly because that's the difficulty the game was based around, so you should be able to beat it on that. Which they did. But they also like going after all the achievements where possible, and Everhood has a bunch where you need to not get hit by the enemies you're fighting. So they did several on story mode, to get it done, and complained about it while doing so.

I suspect part of it was playing to their audience (some of the frequent watchers I see in the chat replay are...unpleasant, let's say), but also probably part of it wasn't. Which makes me sad, but I guess that's Gamers™, and I do realise that not everyone is like me.

To me, it really doesn't matter. If a game has difficulty settings, I pick it based on if I've played that game/genre before, and whether I want to have to think about shit or not. If you beat a game, it doesn't matter how you did it - if you set out to beat it, and you did, congrats!

Anyway, moaning about people complaining aside, Everhood is a game I will never EVER play, since its gameplay depends on quick reactions, and I'm not the greatest at that. But it has some interesting things going on story-wise, and the soundtrack is BANGING.

In other game news, Aoife streamed Inscryption for a bit, and that was aces (I don't know if she'll continue, though, and that's fine, but I'd love to see her reactions to the rest of it). And I also watched her and Ian stream some of Stranger of Paradise, which is out today!

I have no interest in it at all, and watching that stream did nothing to convince me I'd want to play it, either. It just looks like such a mess, and you shouldn't need THAT MUCH TEXT to explain everything! Also JFC your first boss fight should not be that hard or frustrating! Like, Aoife is no stranger to difficult games or bosses, but you could clearly see how irritated she was by it.

Apologies if you're looking forward to SoP, though! I hope you do enjoy it when you get to it, I just don't think it's for me. (Which is hilarious (by which I mean it isn't) since someone in the live chat said it's aimed at people who already like Final Fantasy a lot. I disagree).

And then, for me and video games, I've done with the nonsense that is the marks/hunts/Cie'th stones/whatever in FFXIII. I had a go at Attacus, and it's SO HARD to damage, and has 9 million HP????? I get it's part of that specific enemy type - the Wladislaus is also difficult for the same reasons. But after the Neochu and then that, I was fed up, and I was only really doing those quests until I decided to play something else anyway.

So I switched to Persona 5 Strikers, after thinking I'd broken my PS4, but it turns out I was actually very tired and pressing the wrong button repeatedly (it doesn't help, imo, that they're so tiny as well!) So it was yelling at me for pressing eject when there was nothing to eject, oops?

I...am not sure how I feel about Strikers, so far. I'm only around 10 or so hours in. I feel it overexplains some stuff that I already know, but then doesn't explain other things like, say, how to use spells outside of battle!

I liked everyone for the most part in P5, so having another game with them in is aces. Also it's another Megaten game, so obviously I'm not going to be unhappy about that. But I'm not sure I like the play style (musou is a genre I am not familiar with), but that's mainly because I'm not used to it.

More when I get to it, though I will try my best to keep spoilers behind a cut since it's only been out in English for a year.

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In non-video game news:

# I think I'm growing a psoriasis patch on my right elbow. My dad had one, also on his elbow (but in a different place, and possibly the other elbow; I can't remember now), so I'm honestly not that surprised I may have one.

# I haven't read a book since November, but I am weirdly sort of okay with that.

# I discovered if I'm watching a youtube video on my new computer, it will stay awake so the video doesn't cut out! THAT'S SO COOL. (I am only used to my phone and tablet doing this; I've never had a computer that did it).

# I'm making some art to actually sell the originals of! They'll go up in my ko-fi shop, no promises when, and they obviously won't be cheap, but I will also be offering prints of them as well!

There was finally ~fifteen minutes of exciting stuff in last night's episode of Game of Thrones! After one season and four episodes of epic yawniness. (I have honestly spent the last however long questioning why I'm still watching. I think mum's in it because the show got her into the books and she wants to see how it turns out, though).

I'm going to put my blah under a cut, though, because spoilers.

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I was reminded to write this because I was googling to see if there was a list of who had actually died in ASoIaF (as opposed to GoT). I don't even know who half the people are on this list, though I was interested to see that there are some people still alive on the show who are dead in the books (and vice versa, obviously). Still, it made an interesting read.

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I am going to be cat-sitting again over the summer! I am more excited about this than you can possibly imagine. I am even slightly more excited about that than I am the convention I'm going to on Saturday.

(The comics dudes I went to hang out with last month have organised a con for my town, because we've never had one, and we apparently needed one??? If it goes well this year, they'll likely have one next year, which will be awesome).

I asked nintendoh to give me a letter for a meme, and he did! I got the letter S.

Pre-emptive spider warn, because I know I'm not the only arachnophobe here. Also discussion of eating habits.

( meme )

If you want a letter, hit me up! :)

So I was having a think about Farscape.

Specifically, I was thinking about Farscape ladies, and I thought this: that they're not objectified*, and they're not treated like over-emotional wet blankets who can't keep their tears in check. Also none of them run screaming to John asking him to save them because dang, they can take care of themselves, and they can do it better than he can (in some cases. In all cases if your name happens to be Aeryn Sun :D ). Also none of them are airheads, either.

(Jool comes off as an airhead on first encountering her, which was the primary reason I disliked her so much. But she grew, and she changed, and when she was gone I missed her because I'd come to like her. OK, so that's one example BUT. She doesn't retain that personality for the rest of forever, amen. Which she might have done had she been on a different show).

If I am AT ALL WRONG, please feel free to correct me. As I say in the below, it's been a while.

*I'm sure there are examples, but I can't think of many (any) off the top of my head, and it's four years since I lasted watched any eps. Yes, I am due a rewatch, and that's what triggered this. Although I would like to shove the middle of S3 in the freezer because who needs traumatising that much, right.

So I went to the doctor's last week. I think he is pleased with my progress, and I made him laugh by giving an explanation for something as, "Because...hormones!" Also he's changed my iron tablets, since the last ones were not my friend. I have to go back in three months.

And I do mostly feel good, you know. Which is great news. Maybe I've just been badly anaemic for the last seventeen years and nobody caught it and I've not been depressed (I don't entirely think that's true, however). I feel more awake, more alert, and I feel like my brain's working.

What I don't like, however is that I've completely lost my ability to nap in the afternoon. I don't always do it, but I think I should be able to if I choose to. I can't even sleep during the night for as long as I want, sometimes (this post brought to you by: me waking an hour before I wanted to). I like sleeping, which is why I'm so annoyed that I can't sleep when I choose to.

Pfft. I'm sure I'll get over it eventually.

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Secondly, I watched the Madoka Magica movies (they did that on purpose, right? ;) )

( probable spoilers and blah )

So here's a thing, right?

I couldn't wait to have a tooth pulled because I was waiting to trip out on the lignacaine. I was so excited! It always affects people really weirdly, and then they make cool art/write weird things/etc!

I had pretty heavy dosages both times I had wisdom teeth out. I've also had it for having a hormone implant inserted/removed.

Apart from being numbed, nothing really happened. The world didn't go all wibbly wobbly, and I didn't start seeing fairies. In fact, the only thing of any note was that it wore off quicker than I was expecting.

This always happens. I am most disappoint.

(I actually know why it is. I think I metabolise it faster than I should. FEH).

As an added note, and what made me think about this in the first place is that Venlafaxine (Effexor) never gave me really bizarro dreams, either (turns out I need a bad fever for that). I just found them clearer, and more memorable. I am actually perfectly capable of bizarro dreams all by myself.

(Talking of which, I dreamt last night about making flapjacks - I've noticed since I've got into baking I will, occasionally, dream about baking something I'm craving. Last time it was blueberry muffins. Anyway, that's not the point. For some reason, it required a huge amount of sugar - 4kgs, and that was just the white caster sugar...)

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In other news, my bro brought my nephew down for a visit, while my sister in law had a rest and caught up on some sleep (the baby didn't sleep well last night, so everyone is tired).

I had made some super small hats, but sadly my nephew has grown, so now they really are super small. I said I'd donate them to charity, or a hospital, or something, and I can always make some larger ones another time.

Anyway, he was mostly well-behaved. I held him for a bit, and managed to get him to settle down, which was weird (though I'm told I'm good with kids but, uh, yeah...) I amused myself by wondering if he kept looking at me and thinking, "You look like my dad, but you are not him. Why not?" because he did spend a lot of time looking at me (he probably couldn't tell who I was, though, because I forget how old a baby is when their eyes start focusing, but he's not even two weeks old yet).

Still not broody though. I think mum is disappointed that I'm not. But we've already had the conversations about me and babies and if I need to repeat my feelings to her about it, I'm not going to be too pleased.

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Also I have some herbal sleeping tablets. They contain Valerian, so I sincerely hope I'm not one of those people who Valerian affects the opposite way from normal (it's rare, but in some people it wakes them up instead). But since it's nearly 1am, I don't know if I should start taking them tonight or not.

I think if I played an Innocents game, my heart would actually break. Which would mostly be because there is the potential that your character could die (this is true in all roleplaying games, but somehow it seems worse with kids*). Hello, long lost maternal feelings. How are we at this ridiculous hour of the morning?

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This post brought to you by becoming attached to a couple of characters who aren't even dots on a piece of a paper yet (but are doodles in mah sketch book. Shame I didn't do them before I lugged the scanner out earlier...)

*Ask me how I feel about Nanako Dojima. Seriously.

I planned out this photo post I was going to make today while I was commuting this morning. Except that now I don't have the energy to post it because a) I need to find the photos in question and b) I have a cold kindly given to me by a colleague at work. I'm not as ill as I have been, but I secretly think it's flu since parts of me ache that shouldn't, and I don't want to eat. Whatever.

I'm supposed to do some overtime tomorrow, but I'm going to get up and see how I feel and let the boss know. I kind of don't want to, but crazy job is still crazy, and heeeeeeeeey overtime cash! And I said I would if I was able to. It's only fair. Everyone else has had to do overtime, too. I wish I could say it will be less crazy when Xmas is over, but there's jobs piling up to do afterwards (this one takes priority right now), and...I don't know.

I should probably just go to sleep and wake up tomorrow and see what happens. Except that I haven't even planned to do half the stuff I wanted to online and by tomorrow night I'll have forgotten it (and can't go on in the day if I am at work, right? Because I am supposed to be working). I. Ugh. I'm ending this post. It's turning into a pity party. I can feel it.

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The waffling above (about the photo post), the icon, and this post are brought to you by wondering about childhood crushes and what they might be up to these days (I actually figured out the guy in question must be close to being in his fifties now, if he isn't already. Sheesh. What is this I don't even). I might waffle about him another time if I feel like it.

I had about a million things I was going to post about earlier. However that all went out of my head in favour of making a Hellblazer comm (it says right now it's under construction, but I really can't think what else to do with it, so I may go ahead and open it later in the week).

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I totally slept for about four hours this afternoon (although I feel kind of justified, since my brain decided I could manage on six hours sleep last night).

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Sometimes I wish I were more of a dedicated writer or artist. In that I didn't sleep all the time, had more energy, was more productive. Even that I offered commissions (I kind of do, in that I'll do them, but I don't offer to do them the way everyone else and his mother does because a) I am lazy, b) I tend to get art block when I "have" to do something, c) did I mention I was lazy?)

On the other hand, I keep having this idea about trying to combine everything I absolutely love into one story. So far this would include Ancient Egyptians, time travel, (so far, so good), aliens, ghosts, stuff it paranormal stuff in general, and some other stuff. I don't even know any more.

Maybe that's what I should spend tomorrow doing?

This section of this post brought to you by ursulav saying November ought to occasionally be National Novel Finishing Month (to which I totes agree because I have at least eight story ideas that are nowhere near finished).