all made up with nowhere to go

I am on the last day of a week off work! I woke up late every single morning but today, because of course I did.

I actually think I've been a bit ill, as one night I zonked out for ten hours (unheard of, usually), and my lymph glands under my arms were a bit tender on a couple of days. And going out to do a food shop during the week wiped me out for the rest of the day*. I didn't feel ill beyond that though, which is a blessing. I did have a wicked migraine on one day, which bled into a regular headache the following day, so maybe the exhaustion was a precursor of that, IDK.

So I haven't really done a lot while I've been at home, but that's okay. I was already exhausted from work as it is, so I knew I needed to not push myself so much to get stuff done. Also I've got more time off coming up, and I can get things done then, instead.

I have done a bunch of sewing, after a feverish few weeks drawing. I scanned some art the other day, and realised to my horror that I have not scanned anything since APRIL, and therefore have not updated my sketchblog since then. But I haven't really been drawing, and anything else I've made, I haven't really thought is worth sharing. Which is terrible, but true. Also I dunno, sometimes I felt I haven't had the energy, and really I don't know where the last six or so months went.

I have also referred myself for counselling. I don't know if I need it, but it was suggested to me during another medical appointment that it might be a good idea, so I'm going to give it a go!

I also arranged to meet up with my friend Sarah for a natter on Thursday! She said literally years ago that we ought to hang out more, and I've been putting it off ever since, because I didn't want to bother her or I knew she'd be busy outside of work. But I finally did it! There's some stuff I want to talk to her about because, although I've mentioned it to the people I work with, she knows me better than they do, so I expect she might have something different to say about some of it.

And finally, I started watching Oxventure again! I know I don't talk about it like I did Critical Role, but that's partly because I stopped watching it about eighteen months ago, and I don't really know anyone else who watches it, so I don't feel like I need to make comments about it. And, as I said, I stopped watching some time last year when I got Really Fucking Depressed.

Which was daft, in retrospect, because literally nothing had changed except the production values, and added guests on occasion. I did carry on watching the one-shots, when I thought I'd be interested, but I didn't finish watching the original Oxventure, and I don't know if I ever will.

But I started again with the new campaign (Wyrdwood), partly because I was interested to see what was going on, and partly because it turns out I miss watching nerds playing D&D**. Anyway, it turns out this is absolutely up my alley??? Like the setting and the goings on and so on??? And, of course, everyone playing is still the same, and it still feels the same, and it makes me happy.

So now I have that to look forward to every Saturday! (It goes live on Friday evenings, but I can't be arsed to watch it live, so I will watch the VOD the next day).

And that's pretty much everything for now. Back to work tomorrow!

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*Although some of that was also down to do some very mentally taxing (but ultimately good) things that needed doing.

**I don't think I'll ever go back to Critical Role, though. Which is kind of sad, but hey ho.

1. I woke up yesterday to discover it had snowed a fair bit! Nothing epic, but more snow than we've had all winter so far. And then it rained for most of the day, so there's still snow, but less of it than there was this time yesterday.

2. I decided against writing an angry thing about The Medium. I'm less angry about it now, though I am still angry in general at the devs for being shitty (and plagiarists! it turns out! bobvids did a video about their previous plagiarising and, while I think he was stretching on a couple of points, it's certainly an interesting watch).

3. I am going full tilt into non-representational (abstract???) art at the moment. This is nothing new, really, it comes and goes. I always feel slightly uncomfortable about it, but that's issues to do with how I think about art than anything else. But I decided a few days(?)/weeks(?)/who even knows any more! ago that I was going to embrace it and just make the stuff as long as I was enjoying it. And I am.

4. Relatedly, I am going to have a crack at acrylic paint pouring. I've been vaguely interested in it for a while, but always put off by the fact that you "need" medium and silicone oil, and the pouring medium is not cheap! Also you don't need the oil, it's only for if you want cells in your pour, and you might not want that!

But anyway, I watched a video the other day that used water and washing up liquid and worked pretty much as well! I don't know what pouring medium is made from, but you use water to let down acrylic paint anyway, so why couldn't you just use that?? And it turns out you totally can! So that's what I'm going to do, because I don't even know if I'm going to like this anyway. (I think I probably will; the only problem is space to let the paintings dry).

(You can also use PVA glue as a pouring medium, and I also have that, so that's an option too!)

5. I don't have a #5, so I'm going to go and agonise over which of these art-related books I want to buy with the remains of my Xmas money.