I just had three days off work, and decided I needed to get out of the house and go somewhere that wasn't work or town. So I went to Burnley, which is the next nearest town to me. I haven't been in a couple of months, and I just wanted to bimble around. I'm spending too much time stewing about something that isn't the family situation, and I really think I needed to clear my head.

And you know what? I think it worked, to some degree. I feel far more chill about what's bothering me (I'm not talking about it because ~reasons~, so no context for you OR future me). I am not 100% happy about it, but I definitely feel like my brain is in a better place with regard to it.

Talking of which! One of the lasses I work with mentioned she also wanted to go to Burnley on the same day, and I was like, "why not go together? I mean, if you want to spend some time outside of work with me, that is?" Anyway, tl;dr version, she ended up deciding not to go, but I didn't - for once in my g dang life - feel like it was my fault, or that I'd put her off in some way. And that feels weird but amazing?

Also I'm kind of proud of myself for offering to spend the time with her impulsively, without stewing over it first before asking, which I would have done in the past.

I bought some things I needed, and some things I didn't, and somehow ended up with a nail varnish that is exactly the same colour as my glasses frames (this was not intentional) - it is Atoll by Barry M and I love it already. I want the High Tide one in that range as well, as the colour reminds me of a nail varnish I used to routinely get as a teenager that is no longer made (boooo). But by the time I was buying this, and the Blue Guava one, I had already spent a fair amount of money, and didn't feel I could justify dropping ~£12 on just nail varnishes.

I also bought some video games (Gran Turismo Sport; Agents of Mayhem), and some gel pens I didn't need, but they were cheap and looked nice, and I am weak. And that's really it. I came home and spent the rest of the day chilling. It was a good time, in the end, even if I was on my own.
I spent most of Friday and also yesterday catching up on Oxboxtra's racing games videos/streams that I'd (somehow) missed, and I regret nothing. I really enjoyed it. Racing games are, like, one of my favourite things. I don't know how or why, but they are.

I must admit that, while catching up on this stream of Gran Turismo 7, every time either Luke or Mike mentioned PP, I did do a little bit of an internal snigger, because I am a twelve year old boy. I assume, as someone else suspected in the chat, that it stands for Power Points, but the game does not tell you this as far as I know. GT5 certainly doesn't (more on that in a minute).

I am unsure how I missed this stream in the first place, as it was on a day when I wasn't working, and I'd enjoyed this Show of the Weekend, in which Mike decided he was going to teach Luke to drive properly in GT7, because Reasons*, which had been uploaded mere days before. No, I did not just sit and rewatch this, oh no, not me. I probably thought I'd catch it later and then just. didn't, for whatever reason.

ANYWAY.

So although I own some racing games myself, most of them are PSX/2 vintage. But when I was given the PS3, it came with a copy of Gran Turismo 5, and a very scratched copy of Grid Autosport. Anyway, I thought I'd try GT5, and it's okay? I had to wait 45 minutes for updates, and then half an hour for it to install to disk (allegedly to reduce loading times, but I'm not seeing a massive difference, tbh. But also it is a 12 year old game installed to an HDD, soooo, yeah...)

I am going to have to remap the buttons so I can drive properly, however - accelerate and brake are mapped to x and square, which means I do what I used to in racing games all the time, which is have accelerate always on, which isn't good!** I actually like the way driving works in Saints Row the Third, which is that accelerate and brake are mapped to R2 and L2 respectively, meaning I learnt to drive "properly" in that, because I wasn't always hammering accelerate. So that's what I'll do. And then I might remap the gear shifts to x and square instead. I've been using automatic transmission cars, so it hasn't been an issue so far, but it will be eventually!

(I'm glad remapping buttons is a thing that exists now, even if I've never done it before, which I haven't. I talk about it, but for some reason I never have).

This doesn't mean I've ditched Ni no Kuni, btw. I've just temporarily been distracted by this other thing! Also it got it got me through a two day migraine that I think was caused by the multivitamins I started taking. Which is annoying, because now I have nearly two months' worth left that I can't do anything with. BUT ANYWAY.

~

I don't have anything else to say, as the migraine took up the majority of my brain space over the last two days, and I haven't done anything remotely interesting since my last post!

~

*It's not completely out of the blue - Mike got Jane into F1 via Drive to Survive, but I don't think her interest goes any deeper than that, whereas Luke has shown WAY more interest in what's going on in F1/cars in general.

**Also I kind of want to do some of the driving licences properly, which teenage me is screaming about, because I never learnt to play games properly, least of all racing ones.

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