Nobody will be surprised (or perhaps you will?) to learn that all this hyperfixating on the Manics for the past almost three months now has reactivated my crush on Nicky Wire, and it's hit really frikken hard. I mean, really hard. In part because I haven't been crushing on anyone for years for ~reasons~ that I'm still not 100% sure about, so like, it was nice to realise that I obviously still found him attractive*. But. Like. Also I saw a pic of himself that he posted on IG last night, and my brain just went oh fuckkkkkk** and I just wasn't bloody prepared for that, you know? Because it's been so long since my brain has had to process feelings like this!
Feels kind of strange, to be honest, but I guess I will get used to it again.
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Also yesterday (the 20th) was the 27th anniversary of Everything Must Go being released, and now I feel very, very old.
I mean, I already was, kind of, because being into a band for almost thirty years feels so weird. It's a very long time to be into something, especially for me, when I feel like sometimes my interests change as often as the direction of the wind.
It is not my favourite Manics album. I don't have one. I can't say I love them all equally, because I don't (*side-eyes Postcards From a Young Man*), but I also don't put one above the others. This one was just my gateway.
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In non-music related news, I had two interviews last week, and one of them was the worst I've ever had in my life. I didn't get the job, and I am so glad. The other one I'm waiting to hear back about, but that might not be for a while yet. That interview went much more as expected, and it was like a breath of fresh air after the other one.
And really that's the most exciting thing that's happened in the last week because my life is very boring, and honestly I prefer it that way.
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*I'm going to put this in the footnotes because it's a massive aside but, tl:dr version is that I am dead sure at this point that a lot of the people I've thought I had crushes on in the past, whether celebs or folks I know irl, is because I've convinced myself I did, rather than having actual feelings about them. So it's nice when the occasional one turns up who I'm like, "nope, you're still pinging me in a good way". I could say more, but I won't because a) it's boring and b) this footnote is long enough as is.
**In a good way.
Feels kind of strange, to be honest, but I guess I will get used to it again.
~
Also yesterday (the 20th) was the 27th anniversary of Everything Must Go being released, and now I feel very, very old.
I mean, I already was, kind of, because being into a band for almost thirty years feels so weird. It's a very long time to be into something, especially for me, when I feel like sometimes my interests change as often as the direction of the wind.
It is not my favourite Manics album. I don't have one. I can't say I love them all equally, because I don't (*side-eyes Postcards From a Young Man*), but I also don't put one above the others. This one was just my gateway.
~
In non-music related news, I had two interviews last week, and one of them was the worst I've ever had in my life. I didn't get the job, and I am so glad. The other one I'm waiting to hear back about, but that might not be for a while yet. That interview went much more as expected, and it was like a breath of fresh air after the other one.
And really that's the most exciting thing that's happened in the last week because my life is very boring, and honestly I prefer it that way.
~
*I'm going to put this in the footnotes because it's a massive aside but, tl:dr version is that I am dead sure at this point that a lot of the people I've thought I had crushes on in the past, whether celebs or folks I know irl, is because I've convinced myself I did, rather than having actual feelings about them. So it's nice when the occasional one turns up who I'm like, "nope, you're still pinging me in a good way". I could say more, but I won't because a) it's boring and b) this footnote is long enough as is.
**In a good way.
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