all made up with nowhere to go

So that week I had off work, I was mostly flattened by headaches or migraines, and it fucking sucked. I mean, they were probably all varying degrees of the same migraine, I don't really know.

And at some point past that, I had a thought that I have had a lot in the last five years, which is that my head feels very full all the time. And my brain went, "Yeah, it's full of migraines." (and other stuff, but mostly migraines, or so it seems right now).

And I thought to myself, I need to do something that isn't me pushing myself to make art.

Because I have been doing that for the past however long.

Now. I had been thinking about looking through my collection of colouring books for pattern inspo, because I'd also had the terrible thought about feeling uncreative that has also plagued me off and on for the last five years. (I suspect it was part of the migraines - one of my symptoms seems to be that my mood crashes, and I'll have a downward mood spike). And then I thought, why don't you just, y'know, colour some stuff in one of them?

And now I have a brand new hyperfixation, thank you very much, brain.

It also wasn't helped by a colouring book haul video I watched on youtube that kept getting recced to me. The thumbnail kept amusing me because it said "Large Adult Colouring Haul" and IDK why but the phrase "Large Adult" just tickles me for some reason.

So then I fell down the rabbit hole of watching haul videos, which is interesting, but also annoying because it turns out people who make colouring book videos are very fussy about how one colours in a book. But anyway. That's where my brain's at at the moment.

I think it is helping, because I actually had a solid idea for drawing something for the first time in forever, although I haven't done anything with it because I just want to colour stuff right now. Which is what I'm doing.

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In non-hyperfixation news, I moved some stuff around in the front bedroom, much to the bewilderment of the cat. I'd been putting it off because I thought it would take ages, but it literally took half an hour, including vaccing the floor. All I need to do now is find someone to help me put the dryer outside to be taken away. (I don't use it, and it was second-hand when mum got it, so I don't think it would be fair to pass it onto someone else now, as it's likely waaaaaay past its best).

I also still strongly dislike my new phone. It feels clumsy and awkward to use, and I'm p sure that's not just me. It does take nice photos, though.