all made up with nowhere to go

I keep writing posts, and then not finishing them or posting them because I end up thinking, "Who the hell wants to read this??"

And then I get mad at myself because it's my damn blog and if someone doesn't want to read the post, they can scroll right past it, can't they?

It's not helped by being incredibly anxious about...certain things being nebulous right now. I know that is unhelpfully vague, but that's kind of how it feels in my head at the moment.

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Meanwhile, in Kirkwall:

~ I think I've definitely messed something up with Fenris (stupid pissy elf! I wouldn't even mind, but that Gideon Emery's voice just. HNGH). I am tempted to make my next playthrough with a mage and be all "MAGES MAGES RAH RAH RAH!" just so he talks to me and because the stupidness of that whole scenario appeals to me.

~ Anders is bugnuts, right? That's not just me, is it? I like him (and, you know, he's not that bad to look at ;) ), but because he's crazy I can't...I suppose if I was playing a renegade playthrough it wouldn't be so bad but. Dude's paranoid, for a start. A lot of the time now I am wanting to reach in the TV and punch him. (Which is shame, because I'm sure really he's really nice and I want to start an Awakenings game just for comparison*. And cats).

Also I'm pretty sure he thinks I am grade A dumb. Although maybe I would be if I didn't know spoilers. I DON'T KNOW.

~ Isabela's boobs annoy me.

~ I fought a dragon and I won! I am still unsure how this happened (aside than it took FOREVER).

~ I got nothin' else for the time being.

*Anyone who's played it, is it as annoying and boring as DA:O? (Apologies to anyone who likes Origins, but christ almighty, it's like Tolkien wrote a video game. There's a lot of that that could've been chopped out and you'd still have a decent game. For the record, I like Lord of the Rings, but he does have a tendency to go on a bit).

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Oh, also! I have been watching Awake. We have two more episodes to go. I decided to look it up on TV Tropes last night, and discovered it got cancelled! WHHHHHHHY???

It's a good show, and I was enjoying it, and not just because Jason Isaacs is in it (although, you know, that COULD be a reason ;) ).

On the other hand, me and mum have also been watching Once Upon A Time, which I kind of got into because I realised that "Oh, it's that thing with Raphael Sbarge in it!" and now I may have a massive crush on Josh Dallas (who is younger than me! When did that happen?!) But I can't see why you wouldn't have a crush on him (I also kind of have one on Meghan Ory, too, which may be to do with the fact that she is v. tall and has long legs. IDK).

The reason I mention this, aside from to get my crush on Josh Dallas out in the open, is that, on telling mum Awake had been cancelled, she couldn't figure out how come Once Upon A Time had been renewed.

There's nothing wrong with it. It's fluffy, and it's not as bad as I was expecting from what I'd read online. But I enjoy Awake a lot more, not least because it's a police procedural but also because yay nature of reality it's like you read my mind. And I don't even know if there was a point here any more.

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I have been doodling. In pen. Without drawing pencil lines first. IT IS SCARY.

But also kind of cool. Might scan some of it tomorrow (because one of it I want to make into a bookmark, and one of it I want to make into a bigger picture, and paint and then it will be a print).

However, on the other hand, I may spend all of tomorrow staring at stuff by Arthur Rackham, Kay Nielsen, and Edmund Dulac, making weird hand gestures and going, "HOW???" Sounds like a reasonable way to spend a Sunday to me.