all made up with nowhere to go

I remembered the heart-breaking thing: it was to do with Shepard's dreams.

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Video Game meme, days 16- 20

all the questions

My answers:

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Playing ME3 after killing most of your squadmates is odd. This game is full of people I don't know! (Except Padok Wiks, I totally know him because I accidentally killed Mordin the first time I played ME2).

Like there's a certain mission where you get a random krogan instead of Grunt, assuming Grunt died in ME2, and it pans out much the same (although I think, like Wreav, he has different dialogue simply because there's not the bond there or whatever), and the music's swelling and I actually yelled at the TV, "Don't you dare make me feel sad about this krogan I don't know!"

(Of course it did make me feel a bit sad, because swelling music and ~feelings~ and grr GDI).

And then next is Tuchanka, aka the planet where I mostly have heart attacks.

(Also as noted previously, flirting with Steve is a go, but it still feels really fucking wrong. I don't know how anyone can have done this and not felt weird about it*)

*(I'm sure there are people, but they're not me).

(I love Steve, I love him to bits, but I swear to god, I am never EVER romancing him again because NO).

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MEME TIME.

Video game meme, nintendoh is doing it, and he gave me the idea to do it for myself, so here we are.

( all the prompts )

My answers to the first five questions:

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(I might actually do the 30 days of Mass Effect, one day. Maybe. I've been promising myself this for two years. So. Maybe).

I have a commissions post up on my tumblr! http://muladhara.tumblr.com/post/114582148317/would-you-like-to-commission-something-from-me

So if you want to: BUY THINGS FROM ME!

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Usually, when I play ME2, I run around, nobody gives me their loyalty missions, and the plot does not advance. I do not know what is different about Lucas, but everyone gave me their missions all at once. I barely spoke to most of them! (Thane wants so badly to give me his, but I took him on and will not speak to him again because I do not like him).

I accidentally acquired Jacob's and Samara's loyalty (I wanted to bork Samara's on purpose but that did not happen, and I don't know why. Going to look it up on the wiki later). Now accidentally acquiring Jack's because of waiting for the IFF to be installed.

( nattering, including some spoilers and also a bit blah about me3 )

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I got my story on the laptop, and the final word count before I started shaping it into a tentative first draft was 16,665 (I've literally added 520 words today, but I wasn't really pushing myself because I spent all day inputting it yesterday).

Since I've set myself a target of 60,000 words (it will possibly run to more than that, eventually), I am dead pleased with the fact that I managed to get a quarter/almost a third written in five weeks. It just proves I can do things when I put my mind to it!

(I've also knuckled down and tentatively asked a couple of friends if they mind giving feedback on the entire thing for me, although I don't have a shareable version yet. Go me!)

halley made a friending meme! Go check it out!



(It's not fandom specific or anything, so yay!)

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I finished ME3 again today, and Zoe is now Queen of the Reapers! (I know that's not the way it's supposed to be taken, but I saw a piece of fanart describing Control-choosing Shep as that, and I LIKE IT, OK). Man, I was a ball of tears pretty much from the run to the Beam to the end of the game.

(Though honestly I think that is down to playing the game while taking antidepressants, and then while not - flattening of feelings versus all the feels, pretty much).

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I don't really see how the Extended Cut was an improvement over the original ending, though? *shrugs* I mean yeah, it makes getting certain endings easier (although I STILL didn't accrue enough points for Synthesis, and that annoyed me, but it's my own fault because I am scared of Reapers), and there's some extra doohickeys and whatnot but really? Nah, bro. I don't see how that explained more, to be honest (I'm so buying the Leviathan DLC, though). That didn't explain SHIT.

I have come to a conclusion about Lucas' game (I genned him in ME2 without Genesis, and he is a Xmas tree of scars already :D ) - which is that he's going to fuck Cortez into the middle of next week (and it would be fucking, and he wouldn't see it as anything more than that). I sort of promised myself that none of the Renegades would romance anyone BUT. I also think that romancing Cortez isn't fair (see below, just past the caps lock), but that Lucas wouldn't give two hoots about that (and Kaidan's too goody goody for him and he isn't into ladies or aliens (especially not lady aliens!) SO. Logical conclusion, I think).

(Also I have THE biggest boner for Steve, and obviously he isn't going to be interested in any of my lady Sheps, ever. And yeah. I could look up the scenes on Youtube, but I don't want to. Also because no doubt they'll feature Sheploo who I do not find unattractive, let's be honest, but I get fed up of him being EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE).

(UGH NOW I KIND OF WANT TO WRITE SOME SORT OF FIX-IT FIC IN THE WORST WAY. IN THAT STEVE AND SHEP GET HAPPY ENDINGS AND...YEAH). (but I can't without it coming off as somewhat skeevy to me, because that's how that makes me feel, you know).

This reminded me that I have Merrick the Rogue to play in DAII and he's going to romance Anders, and I haven't done anything with him (and I want to complete a romance to the end, because I did Isabela's wrong, and I figure Bron's relationship with Fenris won't go well).

Because we all know these games are about the romances, right? ;)

(And I had a moment where I totally thought Zoe and Liara might have kissed, and it might have gone onto something a bit further down the line. I think I had this thought in the same place with Nev, but I'm not 100% sure. All I know is dang my feelings, boom all over the place).

Talking of feelings, have I ever mentioned how much I love the geth pulse rifle? Because it is the best. Better than the shotguns. I don't even like assault rifles. It almost never runs out of ammo. It is A-MA-ZING! ♥ *happy sigh*

OH YES AND I HAD A QUESTION! PAGING beccatoria!!!!

In Zoe's final dream, she heard Ashley's voice (don't recall that from Nev's but it is a year since I last played ME3, so....dodgy memory ahoy), but also Legion's, but he was saying "help us" instead of asking if this unit has a soul. So what I wondered was: does the dream change, depending on your actions?

Because Nev was 100% paragon (apart from ME2 where she drifted into Paragade because bleuch Cerberus ick ick etc), and Zoe is 75% paragon, 25% renegade.

Imma check the wiki, but I suspect it will be as helpful as a chocolate teapot, as it always seems to be when I want to know interesting and intricate stuff.

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German phones say klingeling.

This is the best thing I have ever learnt.

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I'm going to shut up now.

I did Tuchanka today.

Well, that's sort of a lie. I did the Cerberus bit last night, and the Victus/bomb mission the night before. I did the whole Genophage bit today. I got through it mostly by storming like a loon, because fuck that Reaper, and fuck those Brutes. I wish there was a way to take them down so that all you had to worry about was the Reaper. But you can't, because the Reaper is constantly lasering you with its Death Beam™. SIGH.

(And I've got Rannoch coming up, eventually. UGH. I like it for the most part, but killing that Reaper there is just...so not my bag. I can barely do running into cover, never mind running and shooting at the same time. Also I find Reapers hella scary, in case you didn't know).

Of course, the most important bit is that I have my Space Boyfriend back.

(Although, even though I locked in his romance once again, I still got Diana Allers flirting with me after the interview about the Citadel??? *narrows eyes* I told her where to stick it though (I hate her character design, although she's OK, but it doesn't mean I have to like her) ).

Oh and I totally filled my aquarium up with fish, because the second most important part of this game is fictional pets, right? (I MISS MY SPACE HAMSTER).

So I've been playing Mass Effect for the third time (or not in save files are anything to go by) with my Renegade Shep, Ras. I started doing it as a means to blow off some steam. I can be horrible to virtual people and I'm not hurting anyone except maybe myself because I did some REALLY HORRIBLE THINGS. I killed Shiala! I killed all the colonists in Zhu's Hope! I killed the Rachni Queen! I did absolutely no side quests! I didn't take Garrus or Liara anywhere (not that that matters, but it was weird). I killed Ashley! (Oh. Wait. I always do that. The only reason she's around in Lucas' game in ME2 is that I don't have Genesis, so automatic bad routes for him. My male Sheps are all going to have THE WORST DAY EVER when they get to ME3*). Weirdly, though, I saved the council, because I'd forgotten Zoe had done that in her game.

(Oh hey, but, somehow I saved Wrex by renegade persuading him? I deliberately didn't go after his family amour, because I knew that equalled automatic save (I don't know if not going after Dr Saleon does/doesn't do anything for Garrus?) so I thought he'd have to die. Which. Of all the horrible decisions I had to make, bwaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh ;_; nooooooo. Wrev'll show up in Lucas' game, and prob ME3!Shep's, however).

And then because I didn't feel like playing Ras through 2 and 3, I whacked 3 in the Xbox so I could finish up with Zoe. And you know how the import bug is supposed to be fixed? It isn't, entirely. She looks the more or less the same, but still kind off to me (I checked in 2 to make sure), and it didn't load her hairstyle correctly. I did try googling about it this morning, but didn't dig too deep, and the first batch of results are from when the game first came out.

Eh, I'll either figure it out, or I'll have to load up 1/2 and take phone photos to refer to with the character creator in 3.

So yeah. Zoe. Have I ever mentioned how traumatic this game is? I only just finished Mars/first visit to the Citadel, and my nerves are all on edge (thanks, Bioware). Also bwahhhhhhh I legit jumped when Kaidan got his arse kicked again. I knew it was coming this time!

Beating James up will never get old, though :D

(Also I know I didn't save everyone - save file said eight people survived, and the only ones I can remember who died are Miranda and Thane (I killed Thane on purpose. I don't like him, what did you expect? Zoe isn't a purebred Paragon like Nev) ).

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*I dread to think how ME3 generated Shep's game is going to go. Horribly, I should imagine.

I am quite proud of the fact that, at the current time of writing, I have not been skewered by a banshee in ME3. I nearly was, the last time I played, but I hit Adrenline Rush (which triggers Bullet Time *g*) and ran to a safe(ish) distance, and filled it full of bullets.

I have also yet to be killed by a brute.

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In other news, I started knitting a sock! On five needles (not just because that's what I'd been recommended, but also because I bought a set of 2.5mm needles which came as a five specifically for knitting socks with. Which I nearly typo'ed as cocks. I should go to bed).

I thought I only had enough yarn for one pair of socks (Regia; which is German, though I believe some of the best sock yarns are) but, on digging it out, I found I had a 100g ball of a make I've never heard of, that I managed to acquire for the grandiose sum of 50p).

Also I have learnt that turning a heel is 100% easier than it looks/sounds.

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On insomnia news, I think I'm having the monthly grrs, because I'm really failing to sleep well at all. So this is no reflection on whether f.lux works or doesn't (I'm getting used to it now), and whether the advice I read works or not (it is to not look at any type for screen for at least an hour and a half before you go to sleep. REALLY difficult in our house - we have a widescreen, and my chair is smack opposite it. So I have to sit funny on the chair and try not to look at it. I would think use of f.lux on the PC would negate this in that case??)

TL;DR version: I'm still having trouble sleeping, but I think it's my brain's fault (it doesn't like me).

So ME3 is basically the game where Bioware pulls your heart out and stomps all over it, yes?

I've already cried twice and had another moment where I thought someone else was going to die. More under the cut!

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I'm still missing playing Awakening, which is REALLY WEIRD for me.