all made up with nowhere to go

Dear brain,

I really do not appreciate you waking me up at 4:40am when we were bloody knackered from work. Please stop doing this!

No love,

Me

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To be fair to my brain, this now hasn't happened for a while, and especially not that early in the morning, but I was sure I'd sleep till seven at least! Seems my brain and ambient body temperature had other ideas about that!

At least I'm not in work today, so I can nap if I need to. Which I might.

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Not that anyone cares, but I've been having issues with the scrobbler I use on my phone picking up the tracks I've listening to. I thought for ages it was the app itself, since it's very old, and hasn't been updated since 2019! But actually, it turns out that it's what it was the last time this happened! It's that the scrobbler isn't friends with the default music app on my phone. So I have done what I did last time, which is to install Black Player, and now it's working p much fine!

I wouldn't be so bothered if I hadn't started compiling lists of the last twenty tracks I listened to in my offline diary. But I've been doing it for almost a year, and it's a habit now. I mean, it's not really that big of a thing, but I am interested to see what I like listening to the most. It seems to be mostly Nobuo Uematsu and Hitoshi Sakimoto, and really I should have known that :D

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I had a half day in work yesterday, which meant I got to come home early, which was hecking AMAZING. I got home by 4pm, and that never happens! I could have been home sooner, but I wanted to mooch around town a bit first, since I don't get the chance to do that otherwise.

I did not buy sketchbooks or drawing paper, in spite of temptation. I have enough of those things that I don't need more, I say, even though I bought more coloured pencils, which I also have a lot of already. They were pastel coloured, and I am weak! (I didn't buy the pastel Stabilo fineliners, though, even though I really wanted to because I have the felt tips that match them).

I also bought some Haribo because of a recent video that Kasey Golden did. I got some Twin Snakes because they're sweet and sour and I hecking love sour sweets. I didn't think they'd be available because until fairly recently, we only had a small smattering of types of Haribo around, but now we seem to get all sorts and that's great! I can't remember what the other bag was that I got (they were on offer, so I got two different types) but it was like jelly fruits, with real fruit juice in, allegedly (spoilers: not featured in Kasey's video). EDIT: it was Funny Mix, which are actually mostly ice cream shaped because reasons??? [/edit]

But yeah: my German and possibly British friends* might be interested to watch this video where Kasey draws bears inspired by German snacks.

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In other news, there really isn't any other news, except that I got to the Diet Building in Nocturne. I thought I hadn't got this far before, but that I've kept remembering bits when I see them, so evidently I did! Well done 2016 me!

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*And possibly anyone else! I don't know how familiar y'all are with the stuff in the video!

Dear right hip joint,

I don't think you're actually subluxing, but my leg feels pretty bad, and I don't like having to take painkillers all the time. So please, fucking stop it, will you?

No love, and better behaviour expected,

Me

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Also:

Dear Firefox,

Stop eating all my memory and making the computer run slower than a slow thing. Yes, I know my laptop is a million years old in computer terms, and has around one gig of memory, but seriously. STOP IT.

Definitely no love,

Me


(Does anyone have any alternates that do not eat memory like that? I mean, aside from buying a new laptop, which is not an option).

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I have to take mum for a blood test tomorrow, and I'm not looking forward to it, thanks to my leg. It's been a bastard today; in fact the only time it wasn't hurting was when I was napping in the afternoon (which I partly did because I was so. fed. up. of it hurting). It could be fine tomorrow. I hope it is. But. You know. Walking. Legs. Gah.

(Now my left leg is hurting. THIS IS NOT FAIR).

I have been socialising a lot recently! I've been to see Jackie quite a lot recently - although with good reason, since I have been helping her with computer woes - and I went to see Angie for pretty much the same reason. (But Jackie was all, "Whhhhhhy is there no space on my HD?! How do I shop photos?!", whereas Angie was, "Help me with my video, pleeeeeeeeease?")

In return, I got 4 balls of mohair/wool mix, er, wool from Jackie (in two shades of blue), and I don't know what I'm getting from Angie yet (since she is busy with her end of year show at the moment, hence the help with the video).

So because I've been out quite a lot, I've been getting knackered easily (people in general wear me out), and not wanting to do anything, which is why I've not posted anything about it till now.

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One day I will get these photos posted that I keep promising instead of just saying I'll do it. Yeah.

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Dear hormones,

Please stop making me want to cry for no reason whatsoever. I realise this is the first time you've done it in a while, but unless you REALLY have a valid reason, no dice. So stop it.

Thanks,
Me

I need an "I am very very cold icon". BRR. DO NOT WANT.

On which note, it was minus 4°C when my brother picked me up this morning, and I happened to comment that this was warm for winter in some countries. To which he replied that he didn't want it, and they could have it back.

Also, overheard on the train on the way home (somewhat paraphrased, although the best bit is verbatim) -

Small boy: Can I have banana and peanut butter sandwiches for tea?
His mother: Yes, you can.
SB: So we need to get bananas and peanut butters!

(I love it when kids pluralise things wrong; it's adorable).

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Crazy job at work is crazy. And that's all I really have to say about that.

(Although it's not as crazy as the job before, but that was more of a rather large pain in the arse).

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Back to playing P3 again. I think I needed a break from it. Also I got stuck on Ring of Fates, which kind of explains that (although I did almost beat it. Short game is short! And I kind of want to be a Lilty when I grow up I can't believe I just said that Now I need to buy Echoes of Time...*sigh* And I do love the FFIX style graphics. Hee).

(Aw man, talking of stuff I need to buy (Strange Journey notwithstanding), Amazon keeps reccing me a complete boxset of Escaflowne for cheap. DO WANT. Although it makes me cry that I promised I wouldn't buy anything else till after Xmas - so that I can buy decent presents. WAH).

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Dear Andy Diggle,

Please stop giving me nightmares and making my hands itch all day.

That is all, thanks,

Me x

PS. Not quite sure I like what you did with Golden Boy yet. Will need rereading, mainly because I wasn't concentrating very hard last night. Although I suppose it proves the pair of them are devious bastards, eh?

Lady will you come with me into

Lady will you come with me into
the extremely little house of
my mind. Clocks strike. The

moon's round, through the window

as you see and really i have no
servants. We could almost live

at the top of these stairs, there's a free
room. We could almost go (you
and i) into together whitely big
there is but if so or so

slowly i opened the window a
most tinyness, the moon (with white wig
and polished buttons) would take you away

--and all the clocks would run down the next day.

- e.e. cummings

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PVA glue does not taste nice (don't ask. But if there is me and glue, chances are I will end up ingesting it accidentally).

I spent this afternoon ripping up paper and gluing it to canvas. Well, why not? Show me where it says I can't do that. I love gluing and sticking. It makes me happy.

I don't know what I'm going to do with it. I'm just doing it and seeing what happens. Mostly it is pink right now, because I'm lazy, and that's the first coloured paper I found. Also I've had it for years and it needs using.

(I also watched a whole bunch more Avatar while doing the above. I am now back up to episode six of series two. End of S1 made me a bit sniffly again, but I didn't all out cry like I thought I was going to - which is why I put it off for so long. Also awesome use of colour is awesome).

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Dear prozac and/or mirtazipine withdrawal,

Please to stop making me feel really fucking queasy. Seriously guys. I know I said I didn't want to eat like a horse, but I didn't mean that I didn't want to eat at all. I am hungry and I can't eat because I feel sick when I think about doing so.

Not cool, guys, not cool.

Improvement expected, thanks.

Me.

Absolute are doing a nationwide trial of Absolute 90's for a few weeks on DAB. Can I just say: it is WITHOUT A DOUBT the BEST RADIO STATION EVER.

Not only do I know pretty much every song they play, but they also play stuff you don't hear any more on (or even at all) on mainstream radio stations (like dance in the middle of the day, fer example). Also it has sent me running across to my music collection to listen to albums featuring stuff I've heard and just stuff I haven't listened to in forever.

Also I really need to buy The White Room by The KLF because that is an awesome album and I don't own it.

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So aaaaaaaaaages ago, when I last posted icons, I was actually going to make a post on whatthejeff demonstrating the contents of my "blokes" folder on my PC (no, it really is called that). When I was making the icons (and looking for more pics), I discovered that actually? My blokes folder is mostly full of Korean men.

Guess we've found my Kryptonite, guys.

(Seriously though, I always kind of knew this was the case. But eh. I suppose the universe decided it had to prove it to me. Also I keep telling myself I totally don't have a crush on Daniel Dae Kim, and I've been doing this for several years now. Given what I just said up there ^^ I don't know why I do that. My brain, she is a strange and weird thing).

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Dear lady with the umbrella,

A hearfelt thank you for letting me shelter under your umbrella while we were waiting to get on the train on Monday morning. You are some kind of awesome, and the world needs more people like you.

Thank you ever so much,
Me x

&

Dear Work,

I love you guys. You make me laugh so much and make me realise that not all work has to be SRS BSNS, even though our work IS SRS BSNS after a fashion. I'm really glad I work with you all.

Much love,
Me :)

(On a related note, Laura is convinced me and Pearce were separated at birth, since we have the same taste in music and films and games, and the same opinions about stuff. Which. That would work, were I not four years older than him).

(Also Laura was telling me some stuff, and I said, "That's...rough..."
My brain filled in the remainder of that quote [/dork]).

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T-Mobile sent me a text at 9am this morning to let me know that my phone was on the way. Oh well, it's only taken a week. I bet I won't get it till Tuesday anyway *sigh*