all made up with nowhere to go

Therapy was a bust, because I went to the hospital instead of where I was supposed to go, and thus missed my appointment. Well, excuse me, but when I mentioned I worked near the hospital, my therapist failed to mention that that was not where I was meant to go. Turns out in the end I should've been in the centre of town.

SIGH.

Anyway, long story short, my appointment's been remade, so yay?

So I wandered around town, and bought myself cheap crap. Mostly coloured papers and tissue paper for gluing and sticking, but also books! Two thirds of the Cosmic Trilogy by CS Lewis, which my mum has, but we have no idea where they are, and also ancient books are ancient. Sadly, they did not have the first book (Out of the Silent Planet), so I'mma see if they have it at the library tomorrow. But I have the other two, so cool stuff is cool (though it would be nice to have them all with the same style of covers and so on).

Also there was cheap manga in the form of the first volume of Saiyuki, and the fourth volume of Fushigi Yugi: Genbu Kaiden. I kind of love FY like chocolate (bad comparison; I can take or leave chocolate). Like jelly beans, maybe? (I still think Yu Watase should've stopped at vol 15, but that's a rant for another time). ANYWAY. I've been kind of wanting to read Genbu Kaiden since I first knew about it, but held off for one reason and another (mainly the price of manga and no job).

I kind of love it even more than jelly beans, even though I have no fucking idea what is actually going on (well, I have some kind of idea, and I'm about to go and read spoilers on t'interweb). I like Takiko more than Miaka (and I don't really hate Miaka, I just don't like her), and I am totally in love with Uruki. Also small stone adorable Celestial Warrior is adorable (and small, and made of stone).

There is no FY comm on Dreamwidth, and that is surprising. I'd start one, but I'm not good at that sort of thing, so I've learnt.

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Got some stuff to scan for the sketchblog. And I need to remember to actually do it instead of spending the day playing 4 Heroes of Light again.

Well, going to visit the nurse was a blow-out. Apparently there is nothing that can be done as, and I quote, "Pharmacologically, we have come to the end of the road" - because the Pill makes me crazy and painful, and I am on the top dose of mirtazipine.

So. Counselling was suggested, and I am not going to say no, because I'll try it. I don't hold out any hope in it working, since this is fucked up brain chemistry telling me I feel like shit for two weeks out of every four. And I've got a medication review coming up, so fuck knows what will happen with that (he'll probably tell me to stick it out because wow isn't this wonderful and working so very well? Ooookaaaaaay then. Scepticism. I has it).

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That actually took up most of my day, despite being seen early, so I didn't have lots of time to draw or whatever, but that's OK.

I did some fiddling with Before Dishonour, and I like this version much better. Also if you want some related silliness, you can find it here and also the world's most unconvincing palm tree).

I swear that one day I will sit down and draw David how he normally looks (like that pic, but) in a pic that takes me less than five minutes to speed paint.

I also did a meme in the form of an Influence Map - which is, um, stuff that influences me and my art. I don't know how true it is, and it was in equal parts intriguing and frustrating. Also Japan is the biggest influence because guess what? It fucking is, and it has little to do with anime (which is why manga's a separate blob on its own).

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I was totally going to post icons, and then I've found other shit to talk about instead. Either I should make a separate journal for it, or I should just actually remember to do it one night.