muladhara | there is nothing like a dame

Well, going to visit the nurse was a blow-out. Apparently there is nothing that can be done as, and I quote, "Pharmacologically, we have come to the end of the road" - because the Pill makes me crazy and painful, and I am on the top dose of mirtazipine.

So. Counselling was suggested, and I am not going to say no, because I'll try it. I don't hold out any hope in it working, since this is fucked up brain chemistry telling me I feel like shit for two weeks out of every four. And I've got a medication review coming up, so fuck knows what will happen with that (he'll probably tell me to stick it out because wow isn't this wonderful and working so very well? Ooookaaaaaay then. Scepticism. I has it).

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That actually took up most of my day, despite being seen early, so I didn't have lots of time to draw or whatever, but that's OK.

I did some fiddling with Before Dishonour, and I like this version much better. Also if you want some related silliness, you can find it here and also the world's most unconvincing palm tree).

I swear that one day I will sit down and draw David how he normally looks (like that pic, but) in a pic that takes me less than five minutes to speed paint.

I also did a meme in the form of an Influence Map - which is, um, stuff that influences me and my art. I don't know how true it is, and it was in equal parts intriguing and frustrating. Also Japan is the biggest influence because guess what? It fucking is, and it has little to do with anime (which is why manga's a separate blob on its own).

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I was totally going to post icons, and then I've found other shit to talk about instead. Either I should make a separate journal for it, or I should just actually remember to do it one night.