please be gentle with this heart of mine

On the subject of the brain is a stupid thing, isn't it:

1. Last Friday when I was coming back from my friend's house (around ten pm), a young lad I didn't know stopped me to talk outside the local pub. He wasn't aggressive to me (though he was drunk), but some of what he said to me really skeeved me out when I stopped to think about it later, and then my brain kept drifting back to it all freaking week.

I went to the same friend's house last night, and was petrified I'd see him again (and there's no way to avoid the pub save going up on a hillside and in the dark of night, that's a bit stupid). Luckily, I didn't, but ugh ugh ugh ugh.

*shudders*

2. You know how the TV broke, and I had to switch the Xbox off without doing it "properly" (i.e. shutting it down from the dash or the menu from the X blobby thing). Welp. I was absolutely convinced I'd broken it, and was sad, because I do not have the funds to replace it. Also all my Sheps, Wardens, Hawkes, Inquisitors, and my Arisen! *clings to them*

I think in part it had to do with bad feelings brought up by point number one, but ehhhhh I don't know. The brain is a mysterious creature at the best of times.

I have been thinking about backing up my customised character saves *just in case* because I don't know where the HDD is in my Xbox, but it isn't one that can be slotted in and out like the older models.

Anyway, I checked it earlier, and it is FINE, so obviously I was worrying for nothing. I will get back to playing Lost Odyssey soon, and all will be well.

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I finished reading Mars earlier, and OH MY GOSH I LOVE THIS STORY. Although parts of it are upsetting/unsettling, but it is funny, and sad, but mostly happy.

But if you are thinking about reading it, please be aware that it talks about suicide, mental illness, and child abuse and some of it in some detail.
(But it does it better than some sources I've seen handle any of those subjects).

It also has a crossdressing character who is treated pretty well (apart from her intro which is a little sketchy, but otherwise we're ok), which is nice to see, given how often characters who don't fit a gender norm are used as the butts of jokes.

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I think my story needs more flashbacks, but it's how to integrate them into the story. I'm fairly certain I can do it, but it needs to be not clunky. And not "character f glazed over as they recalled y traumatic fight in place k", you know?

Maybe I might work on that a bit this coming week (and also reread the story from whence the flashbacks cometh).

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