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[muladhara]

This Friday just gone, I went to the doctor about my health problems (joints + fatigue) and I did not feel like I was being patronised, and it was great!

She has referred me to a musculo-skeletal physio specialist, who I am seeing tomorrow morning (!!)* - she said this is so they can figure out what may be going on, or if it's just the hypermobility being super fucky (not her words, obvs, but that's how I took it). I am also going to have some blood tests, as well as x-rays of my hands and feet.

ALSO: I liked that she said that because I'm hypermobile, at least some of the fatigue will be from just holding myself together. Which felt kind of validating, I guess?

I'm kind of nervous about the appointment tomorrow, but only because I don't know exactly what will happen.

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I finished Gideon the Ninth and...ehhhh. It was readable but, most of the time, it felt like I was reading fanfic for some media I'd never experienced. Which. I'm not saying this to dunk on Tamsyn Muir! I like fanfic, it's great, and I've used this approach to writing original fiction myself. I just couldn't gel with the whole thing, so I will not be continuing with the series, which I'm (kind of) sad about, but hey ho, it happens.

Feels weird not reading a book now, but also I don't have anything else I want to read right now.

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I played a bit with my Finetec paints last night, painting some circles on tissue paper. I will fully admit I nicked the idea from someone on youtube, as I saw some metallic circles they had made, went, "OOOH WANT!", and then straight up forgot I owned metallic watercolours until last night. This is what the circle stamping with gold stamp pad was all about. I have the Inca Gold (which is more orangey than I remember), Sterling Silver, and Peacock Blue. But I just played with the gold and silver last night.

(I also have some Pelikan metallic paints in part of a vintage set, AND a set of cheapo Kuretake knockoffs in watercolour paints, but for some reason keep forgetting they exist. Also, while the Pelikan ones are good, they're nowhere near as shiny as the Finetec ones).

And I had fun! Just making shiny circles. I am easily pleased! (sometimes).

I also had a go at what some journallers on youtube refer to as intuitive writing, which is basically scribble writing, because you're not actually forming letters or words, you're just making marks that look like that. That is also fun!

Now I just need to get on and make a bunch of collage with all these papers and things I've been making. Or something.

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*She mentioned it as something that was possible, and I was expecting a long wait to be seen, but nope! Just over the weekend!

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[propergoffick]

I thought EXACTLY THE SAME THING about Gideon - to the point where I actually put it down a quarter of the way through the first time. I'm not sure what changed in me that made me go feral for it the second time around - maybe I'd decided to engage with it on its own terms, as character/theme work that was doing Just Enough in terms of the actual genre nuts and bolts, or maybe there was something about life circumstances/reader reception/the vibe. I will say that Harrow is a different experience and more experimentally crafted and I think it's a better book than either of the others, but - hey, you've made the call, and I'm not going to be one of those Tomb People who rolls into a No Tomb Zone and makes a pest of themselves. (Well, not after this anyway. It was just interesting to see you have exactly the same initial thought I did but end up going the other way.)

[muladhara]

I'm so glad that wasn't just me that thought that!

I think possibly I wasn't in the right brain for it? I can always give it a reread, since I made my library buy it :D so it's not like it's going anywhere. I did want to read Harrow, for the most part, because I wanted to see how she handled second person POV, as it's something I've tried writing myself, and don't mind reading. But maybe in the future.

"No Tomb Zone" is amazing! Yes. I think I am definitely that. At least at the moment.