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fighting in vain
I got ending B of Nier this morning and OMFG I DID NOT STOP CRYING UNTIL HALFWAY THROUGH THE CREDITS.
(and even then, just hearing Ashes of Dreams sets me off. UGHHHHH).
I mean yeah both Niers get their daughters back except our Nier has doomed humanity to dying sooner rather than later, and Shadowlord Nier is dead. And AUGH ALL THE TEARS THEY WILL NOT STOP.
I do see why Yoko Taro thinks it's a good ending. It is, if you ignore the fact that everything's going to go to shit anyway. (Though I'm glad each Nier gets to be reunited with his Yonah, because I'd rather that over the alternative).
(I suspect this will only get worse come endings C and D - which I can do because I have all the weapons! In spite of frustrating grinding for items and backtracking for one fucking quest. I hate grinding anyway, but ugghhhh. Anyway, it's done now).
I mean, I knew going in that it was very emotional. I remember Waffles playing it a few years ago and it destroying him, but also I know not everyone experiences everything the same way. (That said, we had the same basic reaction to Persona 2 (Innocent Sin, at least), so I suppose I should've expected this?)
I did not expect to cry this much, nor did I expect to feel like such a shitheel. Doing the second half over again when you know what the shades are saying, or doing, OMFG. And yet. I feel so conflicted, because Nier obviously just wants to do the right thing for Yonah. But it's not so right when it involves killing innocent people, is it? (Which I know is the point).
Also I was SO TOTALLY WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING. I thought it was going to turn out to be some sort of simulation that Nier was living in, or that it was some part of some infernal loop or something. BUT NO! Instead, humans are Soylent Green (sort of), and our hero is a mass murderer (though at least he doesn't get off on it like Caim does in Drakengard. Or So I Am Lead To Believe. About Caim, I mean. The LP I'm reading does mention that from time to time, but obviously I haven't seen it for myself as I'm unlikely to ever play the game).
Of course, now I am overflowing with all the dad-daughter feels in all the world. Because I am always here for stories about dads being there for their children.
TL;DR version: UGH THIS GAME HURTS SO MUCH. SO SO MUCH.
(and even then, just hearing Ashes of Dreams sets me off. UGHHHHH).
I mean yeah both Niers get their daughters back except our Nier has doomed humanity to dying sooner rather than later, and Shadowlord Nier is dead. And AUGH ALL THE TEARS THEY WILL NOT STOP.
I do see why Yoko Taro thinks it's a good ending. It is, if you ignore the fact that everything's going to go to shit anyway. (Though I'm glad each Nier gets to be reunited with his Yonah, because I'd rather that over the alternative).
(I suspect this will only get worse come endings C and D - which I can do because I have all the weapons! In spite of frustrating grinding for items and backtracking for one fucking quest. I hate grinding anyway, but ugghhhh. Anyway, it's done now).
I mean, I knew going in that it was very emotional. I remember Waffles playing it a few years ago and it destroying him, but also I know not everyone experiences everything the same way. (That said, we had the same basic reaction to Persona 2 (Innocent Sin, at least), so I suppose I should've expected this?)
I did not expect to cry this much, nor did I expect to feel like such a shitheel. Doing the second half over again when you know what the shades are saying, or doing, OMFG. And yet. I feel so conflicted, because Nier obviously just wants to do the right thing for Yonah. But it's not so right when it involves killing innocent people, is it? (Which I know is the point).
Also I was SO TOTALLY WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING. I thought it was going to turn out to be some sort of simulation that Nier was living in, or that it was some part of some infernal loop or something. BUT NO! Instead, humans are Soylent Green (sort of), and our hero is a mass murderer (though at least he doesn't get off on it like Caim does in Drakengard. Or So I Am Lead To Believe. About Caim, I mean. The LP I'm reading does mention that from time to time, but obviously I haven't seen it for myself as I'm unlikely to ever play the game).
Of course, now I am overflowing with all the dad-daughter feels in all the world. Because I am always here for stories about dads being there for their children.
TL;DR version: UGH THIS GAME HURTS SO MUCH. SO SO MUCH.