we should be home by now

[muladhara]

# My mood is balls. I have cried partially every day for the last week. Except yesterday and today, and I think the only reason for that is I slept well beforehand. Anyway, it's just ~hormones~ so whatever, right?

# I fell into goodreads and I can't get out?

# oh yeah - watched Wreck-It Ralph. It was not like I imagined, but I enjoyed it. I would easily watch it again.

Also watched The Man Who Fell To Earth. It was OK? I'm not sure what I was expecting, really. I thought he'd at least get home but ha ha ha ha ha ha no. Which I really should have realised given that Lazarus (the musical) is a thing that exists and is set after the film.

(My mum: is he (David Bowie) the alien?
Me: Yeah.
Mum: (unspoken question here about why he looks human if he's from another planet)
Me: he's wearing a skin so he looks like us.
Mum: ... )

and

Me: I haven't seen any Nicholas Roeg films before. The only one I know is Don't Look Now, and I don't want to watch that one.
Mum: have you seen Walkabout? It's got Jenny Agutter in it.
Me: Nope.
Mum: Are you sure? (explains plot).
Me: Yup.
Mum: *sceptical look*

# I finished reading The Drawing of the Three the other day! \o/ It only took me fourteen months! I enjoyed it, overall. The problems I had with it were mainly how annoying Eddie is in the first third of the book, but once I got past that, it was OK!

I am glad that Jack ended up dead. I didn't like the sound of him anyway.

I'm going to have a break before I read The Waste Lands, though.

(Just started reading The Scorpio Races. It's OK so far, though my inner voice keeps narrating it in an Irish accent, and I don't know if that's annoying me or not).

Comments

[lilysea]

My mood is balls. I have cried partially every day for the last week. Except yesterday and today, and I think the only reason for that is I slept well beforehand.

Gah. *sympathies*

[muladhara]

Thanks :)

(I'm feeling a bit better now, and I know it'll pass. It's just gross when it's happening).

[lilysea]

It's just gross when it's happening

Oh, absolutely. ^_^

My brain gets really sad and mean sometimes if I get 6.5 hours sleep instead of 9 hrs, so I am most sympathetic.

(Had a horrible day last Saturday when I was too sad to load the dishwasher / do laundry / take out the recycling / pretty much too sad to walk or move, and it felt like the sad was actively hurting me/beating me up and trying to squash me flat into the ground.)

[muladhara]

Oh gosh, that's awful. I hope you feel better now.

[lilysea]

Yes, I had a good nights sleep on Saturday, and felt *completely fine* on Sunday.

My brain is MEAN if it doesn't get enough sleep.

I think of it as like an aeroplane meal single-serving of depression - really vile, but you're fine once you get enough sleep.

I've been logging the days in my calendar for my appt with a psychiatrist, and I have about 5 bad days out of 30 last month, so not sure if that's worth the side effects of meds.

[muladhara]

*nods* Brains can be nasty fuckers.

Hmm, probably not. I dunno, I suppose you'd have to discuss it with your doctor and see what they said.