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Saturday was shitty.
The first reason is because it was the anniversary of mum's death, and I'd been doing so well at not being upset, that I thought I wouldn't be. But ahahahahahaha no! I think it didn't help either that the previous day, I rang up to get the stairlift taken out, because it's not like I need it, and someone else who does can have it. This upset me WAY more than I thought, presumably because it's the last big thing that needed doing, and I've been putting it off for almost a year now. So I spent Friday feeling awful, and then of course, Saturday happened.
I decided to go to Burnley for my weekly food shop, as I needed some cat food/litter and decided on Tesco, as they often have my cat's dry food on offer. Also I wanted some more pens. Because pens! So I went for the bus, and it did not come. I thought possibly it was running late as, in general, my route is almost always the one that gets messed with because who cares about our end of the valley, right. So I waited. Eventually, the next scheduled one showed up, so I caught that.
I wish now I had taken the hint and gone home, but I needed to get the cat stuff.
Shopping itself wasn't too bad, but the Tesco I go to is HUGE, and I always find it overwhelming, even if I only go in for one thing.
I got back to the bus station and not one, but two other people decided to invade my personal space, which always does my head in. I don't even think they knew they were doing it, but the second one literally could not take a hint and every time I moved, so did he. So that wound me up. And then, of course, the bus going home was fifteen minutes late turning up. I mean, at least it did turn up, but by then I was annoyed and sad and I just wanted to be at home.
Then I just stayed in for the rest of the day, feeling crappy. I had intended to go and see my brother and sister in law, as it's my brother's birthday today, and I wanted to see if they were doing anything, but I felt so crap I decided not to. But I will go today, because I feel a bit better now. And I'm not a total arsehole).
So yeah, not a great day, but at least it's over now.
The first reason is because it was the anniversary of mum's death, and I'd been doing so well at not being upset, that I thought I wouldn't be. But ahahahahahaha no! I think it didn't help either that the previous day, I rang up to get the stairlift taken out, because it's not like I need it, and someone else who does can have it. This upset me WAY more than I thought, presumably because it's the last big thing that needed doing, and I've been putting it off for almost a year now. So I spent Friday feeling awful, and then of course, Saturday happened.
I decided to go to Burnley for my weekly food shop, as I needed some cat food/litter and decided on Tesco, as they often have my cat's dry food on offer. Also I wanted some more pens. Because pens! So I went for the bus, and it did not come. I thought possibly it was running late as, in general, my route is almost always the one that gets messed with because who cares about our end of the valley, right. So I waited. Eventually, the next scheduled one showed up, so I caught that.
I wish now I had taken the hint and gone home, but I needed to get the cat stuff.
Shopping itself wasn't too bad, but the Tesco I go to is HUGE, and I always find it overwhelming, even if I only go in for one thing.
I got back to the bus station and not one, but two other people decided to invade my personal space, which always does my head in. I don't even think they knew they were doing it, but the second one literally could not take a hint and every time I moved, so did he. So that wound me up. And then, of course, the bus going home was fifteen minutes late turning up. I mean, at least it did turn up, but by then I was annoyed and sad and I just wanted to be at home.
Then I just stayed in for the rest of the day, feeling crappy. I had intended to go and see my brother and sister in law, as it's my brother's birthday today, and I wanted to see if they were doing anything, but I felt so crap I decided not to. But I will go today, because I feel a bit better now. And I'm not a total arsehole).
So yeah, not a great day, but at least it's over now.
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Hugs.
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