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[muladhara]

My mum died three weeks ago, on the 14th of September. She'd been in hospital for a while after having a massive seizure that she just didn't recover from. She wasn't in the best of health to begin with, but she was doing okay, or so I thought. Obviously she was more ill than anyone guessed (and that includes the medical staff who've dealt with her recently).

It was her funeral on the 27th, and I thought it was going to be horrible, and that I would cry a lot. As it happened, I didn't cry that much (I think I'd already got all that out in the time between), and it wasn't too bad. It was still really weird though, because although I know parents are not immortal (it's ten years since my dad died), I thought my mum might be around for a bit longer.

She was a good mum, and I'm glad she was my mum. It feels weird knowing she's not around any more.

So yeah, this is why I've not been commenting, and I've only been really skim reading my list for the last few months.

I've found it hard to want to post about it, because I didn't want to seem like I was doing it for the attention? Which I'm obviously not, but hey, brains, how do they work. So yeah, my mood is wrecked to shreds, and it wasn't in a great way to begin with. I don't know how to end this entry, so I'm just going to stop it here and hit post.

Comments

[lilysea]

I've found it hard to want to post about it, because I didn't want to seem like I was doing it for the attention? Which I'm obviously not, but hey, brains

I don't think anyone with even a barely-adequate amount of empathy/compassion would think that. <3

Thinking of you.

So sorry for your loss.

[muladhara]

<3

[rionaleonhart]

I'm so sorry. ♥

[muladhara]

♥

[dancing_serpent]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[muladhara]

<3

[darjeeling]

I'm very sorry for your loss, please take care.

[muladhara]

I will, I promise <3

[the_rck]

::hugs:: if wanted.

I'm sorry for your loss.

[muladhara]

*hugs*

[worlds_of_smoke]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. :(

[muladhara]

<3

[lassarina]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I am thinking of you, with love and wishes for healing when you're ready.

[muladhara]

<3

[helvetica]

I'm sorry for your loss <3 I think all the time that you get can never really feel like enough. Lots of love to you, take care of yourself <3

[muladhara]

I think all the time that you get can never really feel like enough.

It's true. I mean, 37 years is a long time and yet it doesn't feel like long enough in some ways. It's so weird.

<3

[nimueth]

I don't know if it's appropriate to offer my condolences this late, but I came back on DW only about a month ago, and I'm still catching up with journals. I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you're pulling through, we're always too young to deal with the loss of a parent. Hugs if they're wanted/appreciated. ♥

[muladhara]

No, it's fine, and thank you. I'm doing a lot better than I thought I might at first.

*hugs back*