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[muladhara]

I just found out, thanks to fucking_meds that there is a possibility that the akathisia could become permanent.

Granted the entry in question was about anti-psychotics but I think there's a point where anti-psychotics and antidepressants cross over (imho). And I've had akathisia as a side effect from escitalopram for going on nearly three years (almost as long as I've been taking it, which is also almost three years).

I really don't want permanent akathisia. I have trouble enough sleeping as it is without my legs twitching like Mexican jumping beans.

Anyway, it doesn't really matter, but it's YET ANOTHER THING to tell the doctor, who I think I will be going to see next week.

(Talking of which, the doctor thinks - or, rather, my blood test results said - that I have a vitamin D deficiency. Who knew? Apparently it's really common. My BFF* has it as well. But medication for it does not exist in the UK, and it has to be shipped in from Germany. So I have instructions in German and nothing else. Guess I can use them as reading/translation practise?**)

*She really is my BFF. I've known her for 24 years now! I saw her today for the first time in a year, and it was really weird and lovely at the same time. And for all the things we could have both been diagnosed with, I find that ridiculously weird and comforting at the same time.

**I understood "do not take these if: you are allergic to vitamin D". I mean, how would you know that? Would it mean you're a vampire???

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There were going to be other things in this post, except that I have since forgotten them, and now it's closing in on 1 A.M. in my part of the world. Also I was going to do a butt-ton of combing through Pinterest for interesting crochet patterns/stitches and all the tabs are open, but now I'm tired so I just haven't done it. Tomorrow, perhaps.

(My pinterest is obnoxiously linked to on my profile, if anyone's interested/wants to follow me/wants to sneer at my choices in stuff).

Comments

[beccatoria]

Ooooh, akathisia, yeah K had that when he was on anti-psychs, which I just mention because he was sort of on them for depression/anxiety-ish stuff rather than psychosis-y stuff. (It was to stop him from freaking out super badly during flashbacks a few years when his ptsd was way worse).

Anyway, he was on them for like 2 years and it wasn't permanent. Of course, he wasn't on escitalopram either (he was on chlorpromazine?) but you know, in case it helps to hear a story where it didn't stick around?

Checking with your doctor is the best thing to do, though, obviously!

[muladhara]

I've been on anti-psychotics, too. Only for a couple of weeks (the doctor described it as a bit of a boost, and, um, it was like I imagine the effects of Speed are. I was buzzing and manic for two weeks, and it was really weird).

I think I was panicking too much as, since I've made this post, the akathisia's lessened - it's still around, but it's becoming less and less disruptive, and it should go. I tend to be a bit of a hypochondriac, to be honest, so when I read about bad effects/side effects/withdrawal, everything becomes a worst case scenario, heh.

I'm still going to go and see the doctor, though, because he needs to know about it all.